Behind Closed Doors

Visions blurred, feelings undefined,
Why can’t I read between the lines?
Am I misdirected, trying too hard to find,
Something that’s only in my mind?
Something that only I can see, so how am I meant to justify
This secret that’s between us, or is it just a lie?

But behind closed doors, is something special,
There’s no way to deny.
The intensity that keeps us here, that fire that burns inside.
I just wanna stay here, shut the whole world out,
Because all you have to give me, behind closed doors I find

Always and Forever

Were better off this way,
So don’t ask me to stay.
The damage has been done,
My whole world came undone.

Don’t cry and ask me why.
Cause you know how hard I tried.
This time it can’t be fixed,
And I know how much I’ll miss…

Your kiss, your touch your smile,
But I can’t live in denial…

Always and forever,
I’ll keep you in my heart.
No matter if you’re next to me,
Or if were worlds apart.

Always and forever,
My love for you is true.
But I can’t spend life waiting,
And holding on to you.

Shaken

From the day I met you,
There's always been a spark.
Electricity consuming me,
You're my light within the dark.

There's something undiscovered,
But it's magnetic and alive,
A pulling force so powerful,
It's too hard to deny.

I know that I can't fall for you,
But it's too hard to be still,
So I'll just stand here shaken,
Tangled up in you.

Holding you is bittersweet,
I get such a rush,
Would it scare you if I told you,
This wasn't just a crush?

There's no way I'd risk it,
I'll keep this locked inside,
I'm just happy knowing,
You're always by my side.

Numb

Words falling upon deaf ears,
Banging on mirrored glass,
I can see straight through you
But me, you can't even hear


Bite my tongue and swallow
Words, back down where they belong
Like razor blades they've ripped and torn
So many scars, bled for way too long


I guess it could be loss of blood
That's turned my heart cold and numb
It's getting hard to feel again
Now you've decided I'm the one


How am I to trust someone,
That's turned me into stone...
You're asking me to love again
When you forced me to walk alone


This heart just can't be melted...
Don't think that I'll fold
You ask why I'm so different
I became numb in the cold.

"Copy and Paste"

You'll spill your affection to one, then another
Everything is just copy and paste...

You'll leave your words vague
So that anyone can relate

How does it feel to keep them all spinning?
Like a game that nobody's capable of winning...

Like a puppet on a string
Tangled up in your spell
I give up...
Please cut my ties

Your words are empty when they're on repeat....
I know the next day you'll just press delete
Let me narrow down your options,
To you, I am obsolete


xxx

Unreachable...

Drowning in a sea of thoughts, scared to ask for your hand
Though you're the only one who calms the storm,
plants my feet back on dry land...

I venture out to my sanctuary, find it under the stars
Wonder how they burn so bright, when they sleep so far

I relate it to a feeling, of the warm flicker in my heart
That one, you know, you give me, even though were miles apart…

The butterflies in my stomach, twist me up inside…
My mind a maze of questions, don’t know what to decide…

The moment that I saw you, you made my knees feel weak
Now I’m not one for chatter, but I could barely speak…

The longing will numb you eventually...
When you're empty you're free..

Lili xxx